Well done you for posting. If i had read this 5 years ago and realised that it wasnt only me who had thoughts like you did i wouldnt have felt like such a crap mother for the first 2 years of my sons life.

Im sure that just writing all this down has been a huge help to you in some ways. Please know that you are not a crap mother. You are being the best possible mother by helping yourself first.

Warmest hugs and thought to you. Your post will help all new groovy mums and mums to be in future to know that its ok not be be 101%

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