Hi guys just writting to you as im up at some un godly hour again this week it was three am last night and now its one twenty and im still up, i've cried a thousand times in two days and im still at it tonight or should i say morning.
So its now friday and i get wed tommorrow and i feel like crap and so so so so scared.
At a time like this when i have people who love and care for me around me why do i feel so alone?, is this normal.
dont get me wrong i want to be married i want my big day, im excited but my fears are getting the better of me.
i have had so much to do to i think its all just got the better of me for real now.
im missing my dad m0re than i ever have too and he passed away 15 years ago, i always miss him but all of a sudden it feels like he has only just left me.
im marrying without him and its not fair.
in two days i have picked up my dress and the bmaids, collected my last table favours and balloons, collected 7 suits been in for the guys to try on as my other half has worked till ten tonight as being self employed jobs have be done before he can have a break off from work, i have packed my little boys suitcase as he is going to stay with nana my mum for the honey moon period and thats killing me to as i have never left him, i have packed my case for the honey moon and sorted out our passports ect, half made my order of service which i meant to be finishing off now as they have to go to my venue along with our cake and things, i have headach from hell and my eyes hurt their that shattered.
i feel like i have lived in my car of late as i have drove to that many places and i still have loads to do tommorrow we have to take the things to our venue see the vicar for rehersals take the dog to the kennels and have my eyes brows shapened go to the hair dresses and get my son ready to go off with my h2b as their all stopping at his dads the night before and going to church from there.
i have my friends coming round at night so i hope to chil although if im in the mess im in now i wonder if i ever will oh im off im sorry to moan just wondering if i can actually do this ........... i keep getting butterflys, im crap and feel so weak and feeble.

Everything is going to turn out grrrrreat! I think alot of us can relate and where in the same state before the big day! Take some deep breaths, enjoy your days with your kids and family and before you know it you'll be off on honeymoon with not a care in the world!

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Oh I do feel for you Lisa. Like Spicey says, before you know it, you'll be having a fantastic day and honeymoon.
I'm sure what you're going through is normal, and it's natural to be missing your dad at a time like this.
Lee's mum died in January of this year and I know we're all going to be missing her on the day.
Have you tried Rescue Remedy to calm your nerves? It always works for me and you can get it from Boots.
Hope you managed to get some sleep last night.
xxx

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