I sort of know a little of what you are feeling. Nearly 4 yrs ago, I was supposed to get married to the man who I had been with for 10 years - until he called of the wedding 3.5 months before, and then dumped me 2 months before the planned date. Last year he got married (the day after my birthday, no less!) and I felt very weird in the lead up to it. I had met her, and since they live overseas I don't see them much at all. But it really annoyed me - he said when we split up that he wasn't the marrying kind, then hey presto, 18m after our planned date he is engaged! It drove me nuts that he was getting married and I wasn't! I didn't think he deserved that much happiness. Luckily, my lovely H2B proposed to me on my birthday, which completely drove the ex's wedding from my head!!!! I had felt sad and old and as though there was something wrong with me in the lead up to his wedding, it was a very strange sensation.
If how you are feeling is anything like how I felt, have a big hug and remember how loved you are now, and that you have true happiness at last.
Fi
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